What. A. Week. Nothing really bad happened but it was just mentally difficult. Someone in my life was trying to be supportive and asked what they could do to help and I just kept repeating, "Nothing, it's really all me, it's in my head and I just have to stop thinking the way I'm thinking."... Continue Reading →
I’m currently reading, some actively and some just sitting on my kindle half finished, NINE self-help books. Must be I think I am pretty messed up and need to be fixed…well, yeah, doesn’t everyone? My mentality since I started dating my significant other two years ago and when I quit drinking a little over a... Continue Reading →
Last night the shadow of “blah” overtook me and that is the only way to describe it: a shadow. I can always feel it coming on, slowly, starting at my feet and casting shade on my being. But for me, and many other women, this shadow only comes once a month and wreaks havoc on... Continue Reading →
Today was one of those days where you wake up in the morning and you're like, "oh boy I'm not ready for today". When I woke up today I was not planning on getting angry and crying in a closet (essentially the small room with two computers is supposedly an office at work)....and I did... Continue Reading →
Well, I did it. I went and had acupuncture done and it was very relaxing, very relaxing. You would not think that having needles poked into your ears, stomach, legs, and the top of your head (which the acupuncturist called my antenna) but it really was. Maybe it was the fact that the table was... Continue Reading →
Well, no one wrote in the comments below to tell me to stop reading self-help books so I guess I will continue to read “Unstuck: Your Guide to the Seven-Stage Journey Out of Depression” by James Gordon and “Finding Your Own North Star: Claiming the Life You Were Meant to Live” by Martha Beck (if... Continue Reading →
I cannot even begin to understand what is going on inside my brain. I can’t decide if I’m dysfunctional because my boss at work is dysfunctional or because I am like my mother or if I am just completely losing my shit. I’ve been anxious and depressed on and off for the past two days.... Continue Reading →
I have never experienced anything like "A Star is Born" featuring Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper (also directed by Bradley Cooper...his first time directing EVER!). When I walked into the movie theater I was completely unaware that parts of my life and my struggle with alcohol would be showing on the screen. This film brought... Continue Reading →
Well, I came home late last night after a long day and started complaining about the people at work/what stupidity...I mean silliness had ensued that day. Seeing my partner was either tired or frustrated with me I asked him just that, "Do you get frustrated when I talk about work?". His answer was "sometimes" and... Continue Reading →
