Tuesday Thoughts

Well, no one wrote in the comments below to tell me to stop reading self-help books so I guess I will continue to read “Unstuck: Your Guide to the Seven-Stage Journey Out of Depression” by James Gordon and “Finding Your Own North Star: Claiming the Life You Were Meant to Live” by Martha Beck (if anyone was interested in what I am reading).

It’s not that I think I am actually clinically depressed but my anxiety often leads me down the bunny trail that eventually ends at the bunny hole, rabbit hole, whatever, and then I have the thought of “what is the point of life anyways?”.

What really bothers me most about these times is that I can’t even appreciate the very good life I have because everything feels so heavy…even though it’s not. For example, right now my very young, beautiful, sweet dog is resting next to me on the couch asleep. This is a sweet moment that makes life a joy to live but when I am anxious and depressed all I feel is irritable. Irritable with myself for feeling so irritated and irritated that my anxiety and depression steal my joy.

Today I can say I am feeling good and I don’t know what to attribute that to. I just cannot figure out what makes me come out of my darkness. All I know is that when I do come out of it I try my best to appreciate every second of feeling good.

On another note, I am going to experiment with something I have never tried before, Traditional Chinese Medicine. After reading through some of “Unstuck”, I have been slightly convinced that acupuncture and traditional herbs (no, not Marijuana, but I mean hey if that’s your gig I won’t stop you), may be a better alternative to my anti-depressant. SO, we shall see what happens and MAYBE I will come back and tell everyone what it is like. I have always thought of herbs and needles in your back as pretty “mamby-pamby” so to speak and a little “woo-woo” as many podcasters are saying, but, these treatments have been used for possibly over 5,000 years (https://www.chinaeducenter.com/en/cedu/tcm.php) so why not try it?

As always, thanks for reading,

Xoxo Rachael

One thought on “Tuesday Thoughts”

  1. Rachael! I was just thinking of you yesterday. I just checked my old email and there you were. We have a copy of Unstuck, which I read many years ago. I think it helped, though there’s a medication that balanced out the ups and downs for me. Write me and we can talk: rlmeadowood@gmail.com (the gmail is what’s new). Also, Chinese medicine is the good stuff. They can just look at your tongue and tell you all about what’s going on. The herbs they prescribe might stink up the house, but drink the tea and you’ll be amazed – at least I was when fatigue was really a problem. Sometimes it’s just a pill, which we Americans love. I’m pretty fatigued now – since my thyroidectomy I’m just not my old hyperactive self. Maybe I’ll go see my Ayurvedic/Chinese medicine friend. Give me a call, let’s catch up! 585-944-8741. Hang in there gurlfriend!


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