Well folks, here I am, day 6 of Alaskan life…it has been wonderful so far. Obviously my anxiety came here with me, it never leaves, but I will say there is something calming about being out among the evergreens and near the ocean. Of course I have always felt more calm and at peace when I am in a new state…something about the change…even though change is one of the hardest and scariest things to go through for a person with anxiety I will say it is one of the best things you can do for yourself. What is life if you are not challenged? If you are not made uncomfortable and are forced to grow? I can say from all the experiences I have been through that have made me uncomfortable, scared, guilty, anxious, all of them made me the person I am today.
Yesterday I woke up quite anxious for no apparent reason. A lot of things have changed in a very short span of time (6 days) so I am sure my brain needed to process things. I hate that feeling of thinking you should be doing something but you’re not sure what to do and you feel like you are vibrating-if that makes any sense to anyone out there. So, I sat down and wrote out some thoughts and came to the conclusion that something I need to work on is loving myself. After typing into the Google search bar, “How to love yourself”, an article from Psychology Today (one of my go-to websites for self-help) popped up that is titled, “A Seven-Step Prescription for Self-Love” by Deborah Khoshaba Psy. D.
Of the 7 steps, the last step really resonated with me: Live Intentionally.
“You will accept and love yourself more, whatever is happening in your life, when you live with purpose and design. Your purpose doesn’t have to be crystal clear to you” (www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/get-hardy/201203/seven-step-prescription-self-love).
When I get anxious and depressed my mind tends to wander to my purpose in life and often I feel like there is no purpose. Often I think that my purpose has to be something large and grand, when really, it does not have to be AT ALL. If you start with small purposeful moments, decisions, and moves in your life then eventually those small things will accumulate into larger things. So, for the time being my intentions for life are a few simple things: 1. To reach for happiness (not attain it) 2. To be healthier (mentally and physically) 3. To help others and 4. To love and be loved.
How are you living with intention today?
As always, thanks for reading,